Please come in! Mind the pile of negative thoughts on the left and watch out for the puddle of drowing sorrows
Posted August 5, 2012on:
Lately I have been thinking about a post I read when I first started my blog. It was about moderating your thoughts about yourself as if you were moderating your comments on wordpress. -update- here is the link to the post I am referring http://enjoylifeforonce.wordpress.com/2012/07/13/dear-self-your-comment-is-awaiting-moderation/ too
If you could filter all the bad comments about yourself out and keep all the good would you then are a happier person? Or do we think bad thoughts about our self to keep up inline and to not let our ego consume us.
Sometimes people do things that seems specifically targeted at me, whether it be something they say or generally copying something I do and somehow do it better and it just gets me thinking negatively about myself and puts me in a bad mood for a while until I snap myself out of it.
It really can be something as simple as a small comment like ‘moody teenager’ or ‘crazy’ that can send me into a downward spiral of negativity. It hardly seem healthy at all, I really wish neurologists would figure out why we think already. It would come in handy in these situations.
So upon thinking about my thoughts I decided to do some moderating of my own but it sort of just made things worse. I keep wondering if something specific was done purely because it would upset me, which the person/people involved quite obviously knew it would or if it is just some crazy coincidence that I am probably making too much of a big deal about in my head. Come on thought moderation work!
I even stopped reading my book not too long ago because I saw a comment someone made about people who read self help book pretty much being stupid. I noticed my book was considered a self help book and haven’t picked it up since… even though it is a really good book.
Sometimes I wish you could actually moderate what you read or hear someone say, then everyone might be less hard on themselves and more people would be achieving the things they set out to do.
I am pretty confident in my goals, it’s the main reason I stopped sharing them with people because it seems that every single time I talk about something I was thinking of doing I got told it was a waste of time and then said people would mock the idea of me doing that – saying I am stupid and just a child so it’s obvious that I could never learn and be smart and sometimes go so far as to copy the idea and go off and do it while they left me sitting there doubting myself.
Soon I will find a way to completely moderate my thoughts, until then I am on my way home from negative city and I am leaving my thoughts behind.