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Are we obsessed with food?

This morning I watched a debate on TV about whether we are obsessed with food or not. I love watching debates on real issues like these – unlike the news, which is filled with cute little fluffy animals causing traffic jams and celebrity sham marriages and rehab visits. With every debate you have your pro’s and con’s, and your for’s and against, and so on…

Today I was left agreeing with both sides of this particular debate.

The “Yes we are obsessed with food” side bought up some really troubling issues in regards to our obsession such as – food wastage, food pornography, contamination and climate change

And the against side basically said “No we aren’t obsessed with food, we are obsessed with eating… oh and sport”

*Cough cough* ehmmm… yeah, why are there so many obese people?

My opinion was left as this – We are obsessed enough to over eat, but we aren’t obsessed nearly enough as we should be about what we eat. In other words, we as a nation (Australia, but if the shoe fits…) choose convenience over quality, fast food because we are lazy, imported because its cheaper, they can make more money off importing cheap “goods” and they have no concern for the farmers who are losing their land in the process, and we settle for polluted or contaminated food because we just don’t care at all and we settle.

When I started my blog “All World Issues” I wanted to write about real issues in the world, I have had my blog for almost a year now, and in that time I realised that who was doing what on Facebook wasnt a real issues – the real issue is how it has been used to market you junk, expose the young to pornography and studies have shown the use of Facebook everyday is linked to mental illness associated with jealousy of others lives,the constant need to be noticed and keyboard warrior like obsessions. I realised that breast-feeding in public wasnt an issue either… but the substitute for it (Formula) and the reaction of many mothers when it came to breast-feeding was the real issue… quite frankly I find it appalling that another woman would see breasts as mens ‘sex toys’ instead of what they are, a milk supply for our babies. Media is the blame for breasts being marketed as sex toys…
This, this here, this post highlights what an ‘All world issue’ is and lucky I do indeed have social media platforms I can share it around on.

So by 2025, we can guarantee that 80% of the world will be obese if we don’t change soon… Oh and at least 3 of the ingredients in “real fruit” roll ups are used in the production tailor-made cigarettes, yes those little cancer causing sticks.


Then we have the fact that obesity and poor diet related problems, have now become the number 1 cause of preventable deaths world wide – preventable meaning you can prevent premature death by living a healthy lifestyle.

Issues were bought up about mass production of farm animals (aka livestock) – There would be no reason to mass produce animals if people did not have a 3 burger a day diet. Not to mention the fact they spend more money on feeding these livestock grains then they do ensuring we are eating healthy food, in the wild these livestock would eat grass and drink water, they would not eat wheat, scraps, have antibiotics and hormone/steroid treatments. I am not saying don’t eat meat – as I learnt today the humans needs to eat meat, meat has amino acids that flush toxins out of your body and amino acids that aid the development and regrowth of healthy muscle tissue. This also doesn’t mean go out and buy a 24 pack of sausages and have a BBQ with the only guest being yourself… sausages are extremely processed, hardly meat, full of bad fats and all in all completely bad for you. The deli section at my local safe way sells “Ham off the bone” to the public and what they don’t realise (the public) is that only about 45% of it is ham…the rest is preservatives, chemicals never ment for human consumption, food colouring and dyes, artificial flavourings etc… (You can ask your local deli worker which deli meat has the most meat in it, its written on the back of the cards.)

Food wastage being another huge issue. One of the debaters pointed out that there are farmers out there ripping out all their fruit trees because big company’s know its cheaper to buy force ripened and imported “fresh produce” instead of buying locally… and lets face it, fruit and veg tasted a lot better 10 years ago. The local fresh produce that has been pulled out of the ground because their looks werent aesthetically pleasing and was more expensive to buy, will be contributing to the sixty billion dollars worth of perfectly good food wasted every year… by the way this is also the same amount of money we give to the poor and starving in third-world country’s every year to aid world hunger. I read an article written by an african woman once, she explained that all they money given to them is never seen because the government is corrupt – so why don’t we give them the food we don’t want instead? we would technically be saving twelve billion dollars a year, and the amount of food we all waste is enough to feed poor family’s 3 meals a day for a year… I see a solution to world hunger that is not being used here guys.


We are all contributing to the problem (myself included) by seeking aesthetically pleasing food over local and interesting looking food. We are setting our kids up for failure because we as a nation are too proud to admit we have a HUGE problem – we could fix this problem tomorrow if we all went down to our local farmers market and did our shopping there for once instead of our local Safeway. By choosing convienience over quality and health, we are willingly inviting the imported food we complain about into our country and we still aren’t satisfied because it doesn’t look “nice”.
Our children are the first ever generation that will no surpass us because of this ‘obsession’ with eating unhealthy food and the need for convience. Yes you read correctly, your children probably wont live longer than you and some unfortunate parents will watch their children eat themselves to death.

So when are we going to do something about it?

Sweet cheeks and speckled beaks

Science filled days, gym filled mornings and nights.

I’ve been doing bootcamp for 2 days and training in between – so that is 6 days of working out that I have been doing for about a month and a week now. I thought I would do an update because I have some regular readers who are probably wondering how I am going. Tonight I am taking a break from the working out – I am a bit run down so a long night sleep is in order… Correction, long night packing, I figure I will get all the clean clothes I need packed away, all the toys so the boys can’t mess them up – soon pack up the bed and wash the sheets.

I have to admit – I am actually and extremely anxious person, but an incredible actor, so not many people can tell… Unless you are one of the unlucky people who are very close to me and get to hear me when I peep about my anxiety.

Why am I anxious? Well even though I have signed the lease to my new house and even though everything is set in motion – somehow I still think it will all fall through.

But its understandable, people over analyse everything when it comes to their lives. Things are nearly, almost always made to seem worse by our on brain than they actually are in life.


Recently – mittens nominated me for ‘the best moment’ award for always writing in the moment.

This is true, I do always write in the moment, I have only pre-planned my posts a few times, I write how I am thinking and feeling and I am truthful about it too.

I haven’t actually decided who I will pass this award onto yet.

I wanted to talk about my boot camp and exercise – so like I’ve said, it doesn’t matter if you have had a few C-sections, you can still lose weight. I also wanted to remind you that the number on the scales can’t gage whether you are fit or not, because you can weigh the same weight, but look skinny fat or ripped and healthy.

I still weigh 65kgs but my waistline is shrinking and so is my tummy (yes all that over hanging skin I had from the C-section is going away aswell with the help of fish oil and red krill oil)



2 weeks later and still 65kgs.

It is important that you gage your ‘weight’ and health based on how you look not the number on the scales. It is best to take a photo in the same clothes and pose each month of the front and side so you have something to compare it too.

I wanted to share my workouts and now my diet.

So I am on the paleo diet at the moment
Each meal consists of a handful of protein, and two leafy veg, with 2 tsp good fats (coconut oil, macadamia oil or avocado oil.)

Breakfast – salmon baked in the oven with lemon. Broccoli and a cup of green tea.

Snack – handful of cashews

Lunch – handful of chicken (I always roast my own chickens now) 2 handful of broccoli. You can cook the chicken you take off the bone in a fry pan with some coconut oil – it tastes amazing.

Dinner – handful of any red meat (not sausages because they are processed) and 2 handfuls or green leafy veg.

My vitamins I take are:
-fish oil 4 a day
-red krill oil 4 a day
-centrum advance A-zinc
-green tea extract

My protein of choice is
I have vanilla peanut butter flavor

My pre-workout of choice is

Except now this one is illegal in Australia, so I won’t be able to buy more after its gone.

And then I go to the gym – my commando Ben sellars (still can’t believe I am training with him when I only just bloged about him the other week) has gotten me on a new exercise program.

Monday’s, Wednesday and Friday are bootcamp, except I don’t attend Friday because Jordan is doing his PT course that day and we are still on the waiting list for child care. Every other day my work outs vary from weighted squats, squats with just my body weight, weight lifting, chin ups, pull ups, sprints ect… I feel lazy if I miss a day now.

Yesterday I bought my first pair of really good runners – Nike free runs

I can’t wait to try them at the gym today :p

Have a great day everyone – remember if its processed it was never meant to be eaten.

When technology fails

‘Lest we forget our precious planet as we slip deeper into a comatic state of technological dependency. Yes if you ignored that sentence correctly, you would have seen that ‘Comatic’ is a word I just made up – Shh I can so do that because this is my blog…

Anyway if you took a wild guess about why I used such a term as comatic (my definition is a conscious coma like state of existence) and you guess I meant like a zombie, well, then you would be right.

When I was in school we did something called a ’40 hour famine’. It is an activity for charity where school students will not eat for 40 hours, live off only water and barley sugar lollies, door knock and try and raise money for hungry children. The aim of this (other than to obvious raising money) was so that well off children would be able to feel how it feels to go hungry – problem with this was, there were already kids that went hungry at the school, so nobody was all that bothered, signed up and just lived their daily life having not learnt a lesson at all.


When the school caught on to the fact that most the kids that entered were already starving themselves due to psychological issues, such as thinking they were fat due to bullying or because their parents chose to spend their welfare checks on smokes, booze and drugs, the youth committee had decided on another 40 hour famine – a 40 hour no technology and furniture ban.

A lot of this kids were outraged and this was around about the time that facebook started to become big at my first Highschool. Many of the students were already addicted to their facebook on their phones and they also had their myspace (back when myspace was ‘cool’).

When I look back at this particular 40 hours, most of the students couldn’t even last three hours, including myself. After the 40 hours started I soon forgot that we were supposed to give it up. The internet in general has been a part of my life since I was ten so I couldn’t imagine not living without it. Even when I hiked around the Flinders ranges for seven days, a lot of the girls who went with me still tried to access the internet on their phone (thankfully it didn’t work).


My point here is – have we become so dependent on technology that we really can’t go without? The very thought of your phone, internet, television and all your other tech items not working can send a horrible shiver down your spine and cause a mini anxiety attack. Thankfully my phone has been cut off that many times (from refusing to pay my bills because quite frankly my kids are more important) that I am not bothered when I don’t have internet. It still does bug me slightly, we shouldn’t be so reliant on technology, it’s not making our situation better… when technology fails then what?

Dessert can be healthy.

People are under the impression that eating healthy is bland, boring and expensive, when really it is flavoursome, fun and cheap.
I don’t mean to offend anyone, but we aren’t oblivious to the fact that the world is becoming “FAT” when are we finally going to get serious?

Its not a joke anymore. We wanted rights, freedom and equality but the fact is – we are abusing them in the face of gluttony. I feel strongly about this issue because I was once trapped by the over the counter ‘healthy’ packet foods that just left a horrible taste in my mouth and a bitter number on the scale.

And fact is, there are plenty of overweight people who read my blog and are probably reading right now and they probably don’t care that their waistline is expanding. So all I can really do is hope to god they will realise this and change their lifestyle. But until then here is a really yummy healthy desert you can make in no time at all.

So you want to have some pro-biotic yogurt or Greek yogurt. None of this flavoured ‘low-fat’ stuff. Don’t let yourself be fooled by the ‘low-fat’ signs… Low fat has more sugar and sugar is also stored as fat, so basically companies are making billions and you are none the wiser (until now if you didn’t already know that).

2 table spoons of oats and 1 table spoon of honey

1 banana


2 strawberries sliced


And a tea spoon of butter

Some dark chocolate shaved


So slice up half the banana and mix with about a cup of yogurt. Spoon into 2 small glasses. Smooth down and layer some sliced banana on top, then place another teaspoon of yogurt on top.


Line a baking tray with baking paper and pre-heat oven to 180c for 5 mins (convert this to Fahrenheit if you are american). Lay out oats and drizzle honey over and the teaspoon of butter. Bake 5-10 mins then set in fridge.

Once set break the caramelized oats off the baking paper and place over the top of your yogurt. Place strawberry on top and sprinkle your shaved dark chocolate. Place in the fridge until ready to serve.

This is the perfect way to have a healthy and romantic easy desert with the hubby or the missus (she will appreciate it and chocolate is an aphrodisiac ;D. )


Enjoy and please consider your health.

Take some notes and improve your life.

When I watch T.V, I watch only a small selection of shows (unless others are watching stuff around me.) A few of those shows are

-The Dr’s

- Dr Oz

- Dr Phil

When I watch shows like ‘The Dr’s’ and ‘Dr Oz’ I like to take notes – Because it is never too late and you are never too old, to learn more and improve your life or change the way you live.

Today I would like to share what I have learnt from todays ‘The Dr’s’ Episode “Myth or reality’.


Usually I would write down what I learn in a little note-book and share with a few people, but I know a few people who read my blog that could benefit from some of the stuff they shared.

Even though this episode had been filmed last year in 2012, it had only aired here in australia, so there is a huge chance that my american readers have already seen the episode and know about what I am going to share.

So as I mentioned earlier, the episode was a ‘Myth or reality’ episode. as dry usually do in these types of episodes, they did indeed go through some common myths about regular things.

The episode started with,

Is it healthy to have a bowl moment every day?’ this was a myth. Although it is of course healthy to poop (>.<)’ It is not a need that we do it every single day. If you like your once a day trip to the loo for number two, then by all means keep it up, but you don’t have to if on one day you feel like you can’t go. If you go less than 3 times a week, or have pain or feelings of constipation, increase your fibre intake for breakfast and drink more water. Also always remember to wash your hands after you go to the toilet, otherwise you can make yourself really sick and frequent the toilet more often than you would like.


Autumn the personal training robot” Yes, you read that right, a personal training robot names Autumn. :) Now I personally have never seen anything like it, I prefer the traditional personal trainer (well my partner who is studying Personal Training and nutrition at the Australian institute of fitness.) But this little buddy is a good solution for those who can’t afford the constant cost of a PT (rates vary per PT and country). I would assume that the technology for Autumn has been updated, but on this particular episode they showed how Autumn interacts with the owner and how she stores and keeps track of your progress, calorie intake and exercising. Autumn will also have a conversation with you as she has conversational skills and will try her best to motivate you to stay on track.


“Is it ok to use sunscreen that is over a year old?” No it is not ok, not only do the chemicals used to make sunscreen change overtime (You should know this if you did chemistry and paid attention) But it also stops working… plus do you really want to be putting all those chemicals on your skin and your children’s skin? Lets face it, skin cancer is not fun at all, sun damage does not look great – sure having a tan is glorified but it is unhealthy and you can find better solutions to tan your skin then laying in the sun slowly sizzling your skin like a steak on the fry pan. Why not try a mineral based and water proof sun block? There is no need to re-apply this sunblock after it has been applied and it is %100 water proof – so you and the kids can go swimming and still be protected from the suns rays. On the episode they showed the Mineral Based Sunblock called ‘Tickle Time’

And lets clear something up here aswell, the sun does NOT cause skin cancer… but the ABUSE of the sunlight we are given does…


“It is always healthy to cook with olive oil” This is a myth, although olive oil is extremely healthy for you, you really need to be cautious of where you store it and how you cook it. When you cook it above 350 degrees (I assume because The Dr’s is an american show this means fahrenheit) which would mean 176 degrees celsius in australia, if you exceed these temperatures when cooking with olive oil, the oil becomes rancid and oxidizes – this is not good for you at all! Also storage, storing your olive oil in a place where there is sunlight causes the same effect. A suggestion was putting a few drops of Vitamin E Oil into your olive oil to stop the oxidation process.


Olive oil is among my favorite oils, I love to have a small teaspoon of olive oil mixed with balsamic vinegar (which is 0% fat and 0 calories plus fat metabolizing) with my salads. Also Olive oil is amazing for your skin, so olive oil based cosmetics are wonderful.


“Not all cheese’s are made with equal fat content” This is true, not all cheeses are the same and the most fattening is cream cheese.


“Obese teens eat fewer calories” This is true, usually obese teens became obese in childhood, so when the grow older, even though they eat less, they still don’t have much motivation to get up off the couch and do some exercise. One of the main problems with Obese people is although they see that they are fat, they are oblivious to what their organs on the inside look like and all the fat inside their arterys and around their heart. They usually don’t teach these things in school and most the time the TV is filled with the problem not the solution. So here is a few eye-opening pictures for you.


Do you see all that yellow around the bigger persons body? That is all fat. There is only an average of 2-4 KGS of bone in each person. And a lot of people are +50kgs over weight and it is doing damage to your bones, muscles and vital organs. As you can see in that picture the skeletal frame is only just able to keep itself from completely collapsing thanks to all your muscles and tendons keeping it all together.

“Does milk cause more phlegm production?” No it doesn’t, it just feels like it because milk is a similar consistency.


“Can flickering lights from your TV trigger your migraines?” Yes, they can but also it isn’t just TV’s that can trigger a migraine and it depends on the person. Some of the triggers can be – Red wine, Coffee, Chocolate, scented candles or incense, Yours or your partners perfume/cologne, stress and increased noise. So how can you tell when you are about to have a migraine? A lot of people experience something called an “Aura” which basically skews your vision and is usually described like this.



another symptom of a migraine onset can be nausea, difficulty concentrating and your speech may be distorted or you might have an inability to speak. Professionals suggest that you document your migraine because it could mean you have an underlying health condition, or your diet may need changing.  A diet of unhealthy food can cause migraines aswell. Documenting what you eat, when you eat it, what you are doing before your migraine comes on, how long it lasts and what happens while you have it, can be a great way for professionals to get to the bottom of it and to also tell you whether you are experiencing a ‘migraine’ or just a regular head ache.

Just remember everyone, make sure you include plenty of fruits, veg and meat in your diet. Balsamic vinegar and olive oil on your salad will not only taste great but assist you with your weight loss progress and take a multi-vitamin and plenty of Omega 3  AKA Fish oil capsules. Try to learn as much as possible (This does not mean learn as much as you can about someone else… Gossiping is wrong and extremely unhealthy also bad for your mental health. Especially if you are already jealous of someone.)


Lazy lamb chops, slowcookers delight

I say ‘lazy lamb chops’ because you can leave this particular meal for 6-7 hours – it’s perfect for those who are under confident cookers, workers and uni students.

And let’s face it, lamb can be annoying to get right.

Lets start with your ingredients:
6 lamb loin chops
4 potatoes
2 carrots
1 onion
5 table spoons tomato sauce
Pinch salt and pepper.
5 cups of water.

So what I do (you can do this in the morning before you leave the house) is peal a few potatoes ( how ever many you would like) cut them into cubes, set aside.
Cut up some carrots, place in potato bowl.
Cut 1 onion up into 8ths (that means half the onion then cut the halfs into quarters) separate the layers. Place in bowl.

Grab your lamb loin chops, frozen or fresh it doesn’t matter because it will cook either way. Place them in your slow cooker with the tomato sauce, salt, pepper and water, mix it around.

Add your veggies, (you can add pumpkin if you would like) and turn onto medium heat.

You can leave this for the rest of the day, stir when you get home and serve when you would like. The lamb should fall off the bone and the fat should also separate with ease.

Today I just placed the lamb in, which you can do as well. You just don’t add the veg. I lay mine out on a small bed of lettuce and cooked some other veg.

You can also make a soup out of the left over broth. Be sure to pick out any left over bone beforehand.



Lemon and pepper salmon cuits dans du papier

Lemon and pepper salmon cuits dans du papier (cooked in paper.)

Today I thought I would share what I cooked for dinner, because it was quick and simple.

So you want to start with your ingredients: serves 2 btw (by the way)
2 salmon fillets
2 lemons
1 tomato
Handful of alfalfa sprouts
Quarter of cucumber
Olive oil
Table spoon butter
Pinch salt and pepper

So you wanna start with the salmon, grab an oven dish and some baking paper, place the salmon on the baking paper (in the oven dish of course) season with the table spoon of butter, whole lemon juice, salt and pepper. Wrap the paper up and place in the oven at 180c fan forced for 20-30 mins.

Build your salad with the rest if your ingredients. How ever you want it fine, drizzle with olive oil and a bit more lemon juice to taste.

My salad looked like this.


Then when the salmon is cooked, take it out the oven and serve it :)

Should look something like this.


Just because I am not, does not mean I do not


This had been bugging me for quite some time (and I’ve been attacked over it time and time again.)

I am a meat eater – Oh yes I am, I have vegans on my Facebook, they post the odd vegan status here and there… no, it’s actually all the time – As soon as I mention anything about being completely fine with eating meat… wow a group of them pop out of nowhere to attack me and say I don’t respect their beliefs… and claim I would eat cats and dogs too.

Fact is… I do respect your ‘beliefs’ but I do not respect your attitude when it comes to others and their beliefs. (Note to the vegans who read this – if you think this doesn’t fit you then it’s not about you.)

The reason it bothers me is because me being a meat eater is a horrible thing to the people I know, I get told I am not compassionate, I get told I am cruel and I get told that I will be healthier without meat.

I have been eating meat my whole like, so quite frankly – no I would not, I would get sick because it’s what my body runs off and I am not about to jeopardize my own body’s health and wellness to not be cruel to animals who are bread for slaughter.

I write this post out of confidence, because vegans do it too – they love and support their life choices so why can’t I? Just because I don’t agree with veganism doesn’t mean I am not a compassionate person and does not at all mean that I cannot share my opinion without being attacked over it.

But that’s just it isn’t it – I disagree so that makes me the horrible person, I disagree and a group of them attack me about it so it looks like I am the horrible person.

I think what gets me the most is the concept… not eating animals because they have feelings, when the world is one GIANT food chain – and we ARE the apex predator, and it’s not just that given the chance animals eat their own kind, pigs will and do eat humans, animals are wild and no matter how many people try to tame animals like lions and tigers – they almost always are eaten by their ‘safe and tamed wild animal.’

Who here has studied Biology? You know the basic cell structure and stuff, so you know that animals and plants both have cells that multiply the same? Plants are living things as well, so to suggest they don’t have feelings but animals do… don’t understand the logic behind that at all.

Life is full of questions, fact is how are we supposed to know whether animals actually do have feeling or not… how are we supposed to know whether plants have feelings.

I am a meat eater and I always will be, but it does not mean I do not wonder about these things, but I also BELIEVE that we all need meat to live a happy and healthy life. Care for animals and such yes, don’t test on them and don’t treat them bad, but when it comes down to it at the end of the day – For me, a cow is food and so is a chicken, so is shark and any animal that is cooked for food because veganism doesn’t even enter a lions mind when it catches its prey and cows will eat cows if they are hungry and one dies around them.

I respect others choices, but if you want everyone to support and respect your choices then you need to keep that stuff to yourself – As a lot of people will definitely not like this post, I am posting it to remind you that just because I am not a vegan, Christian, catholic, Buddhist, Muslim, Jehovah witness and so one does NOT mean that I am not entitled to dis-agree with you, it doesn’t mean I am racist, it doesn’t mean I am sheltered or incapable of harvesting my own belief system – it just means I am human and I have my own opinion



Hey everyone,

So last time I updated my blog about my weight, I was at 66kg, that was very short lived, because well you know, Christmas time and all LOL!

But yeah… I jumped back up to 70kg after Christmas and 2 weeks ago I got back on the band wagon and last week I started to go to the gym (today is rest day.)

I also sliced my foot open on a love heart cookie cutter my son left on the ground (Yeah I am definitely feeling the love now Setesh.)

No matter, I will still hit the gym tomorrow, because I am not going to let a silly little (well actually huge) cut stop me from my goal.

Losing more weight.

I wanted to give you all an update of my progress.

So since I started clean eating and exercising 2 weeks ago I have dropped down to 67kg (I only started going to the gym 5 days ago and I have been 4 times.) I have cut out all breads and have reduced my sugar in my coffee to half a tea spoon AND I am drinking camomile tea instead of my usual English breakfast tea.

I am also following Larissa Reis workout schedule and almost the same diet (minus a few things you can’t purchase here where I live.)

Larissa Reis (google images)

While at the gym yesterday (it was leg day so I am lucky I cut my foot on rest day not before leg day) I learnt I smashed out 65kg on the sitting leg press 3 sets of 10reps (That is an amazing amount for a beginner who really doesn’t have much strength in her lower body.)

I can lift 25kg all together and I can do 8-10 chin ups at a time WOW!

I spent 40 mins on the cross trainer (burnt 314cal)

And that’s only the beginning.

Try this for breakfast next time you feel like eggs.

Poached eggs with salad – ingredients are really self-explanatory if you have a close look at the picture

Rubys Notes – Chapter 1 part 1 edited

For those of you who are wondering, I posted my first draft copy, of my first chapter, of my first novel and for the first time. That is a lot of firsts. http://allworldissues.com/2012/12/05/rubys-notes-chapter-1-draft-thoughts/

I asked people for constructive criticism (yes good and bad) one thing you need to realize if you want to publish your work – you need to seek the criticism, and face the music – otherwise how are you going to improve and make it better?

Last night I spent a bit of time editing it (old school paper and pen style)

book edit pic

here is some of the edited copy – And for those who are wondering ALL my work IS in fact Copyrighted. So don’t be thieving ;)

Being a school teacher wasn’t all it had cracked up to be. Sure there were a few perks, seeing the smiles on those children’s faces every time I entered the room, just as easily they smiled when it was time to pack their bags and go home, teaching them all about how the world works… How much they actually listen to is a different story. My name is Ruby, Ruby Kensington but you can call me Miss K.

I’m not married, I don’t even have a boyfriend, I don’t have children of my own and I don’t have any friends. No I am not a weirdo or maybe I am. You can decide that for yourself. I’m going to tell you a story about how I ended up in the position I am in.

June 28th 8:40pm. 1993

It was the 90’s and I was fresh out of law school, already I had already received my first job offer. I was desperate, so I went for it not knowing quite what I was getting myself into. We had arranged to meet at 9am the next day to discuss what the job involves, the only problem was that I did not know who I was meeting or why. I had received the phone call out of the blue, and the person I had spoken to did not go into any detail about the job, they just gave me a time and the address of where I would be meeting my ‘potential employer.’ When you are a lawyer, you don’t think too much about those types of phone calls – although I would have preferred to pick the location myself.

That night I had a group date with my best friends Chloe and Sandra.

They had been my friends since we were in law school. Chloe had long blond hair with colors running through it, pinks, purples, blues and oranges. She was short, maybe 5’2 and she was very socially awkward. When Chloe was younger she really wanted to be a hairdresser, but her mum forced her into attending law school. Chloe didn’t want to upset her mother, so, she used her talents with hair as a side business as a way to make some extra cash. Now Sandra on the other hand was the complete opposite. Sandra was a girl of status in the law industry – as her dad was a lawyer. She was tall with luscious tanned legs that go for miles. Sandra had dark hair and dark eyes, with a European look to her plus she was really skinny and everything about her screamed sexy. Sandra always had all the guys pining over her like little puppies, even though she turned them all down.

As the night progressed I couldn’t shake the feeling that I was being watched. You know the type of feeling you get when you think there is someone who just won’t stop staring at you? The hairs on the back of your neck stand up and cold shivers run down your spine, as if someone had ‘just walked over your grave’ as they say. That’s the feeling I had now, so I decided to call it a night with my friends and walk home.

As I was walking I started to feel dizzy, queasy even… did I really drink that much? A few minutes passed by and I couldn’t bring myself to walk any further. I hailed the first cab I saw and jumped in. My house was about a 10 minute walk away from our favorite hangout but I just couldn’t bear to walk any longer. The taxi drive made me feel worse. I wasn’t even sure if I was even in a taxi anymore and I just passed out.