Posts Tagged ‘music’
For those of you who are wondering, I posted my first draft copy, of my first chapter, of my first novel and for the first time. That is a lot of firsts. http://allworldissues.com/2012/12/05/rubys-notes-chapter-1-draft-thoughts/
I asked people for constructive criticism (yes good and bad) one thing you need to realize if you want to publish your work – you need to seek the criticism, and face the music – otherwise how are you going to improve and make it better?
Last night I spent a bit of time editing it (old school paper and pen style)
here is some of the edited copy – And for those who are wondering ALL my work IS in fact Copyrighted. So don’t be thieving
Being a school teacher wasn’t all it had cracked up to be. Sure there were a few perks, seeing the smiles on those children’s faces every time I entered the room, just as easily they smiled when it was time to pack their bags and go home, teaching them all about how the world works… How much they actually listen to is a different story. My name is Ruby, Ruby Kensington but you can call me Miss K.
I’m not married, I don’t even have a boyfriend, I don’t have children of my own and I don’t have any friends. No I am not a weirdo or maybe I am. You can decide that for yourself. I’m going to tell you a story about how I ended up in the position I am in.
June 28th 8:40pm. 1993
It was the 90’s and I was fresh out of law school, already I had already received my first job offer. I was desperate, so I went for it not knowing quite what I was getting myself into. We had arranged to meet at 9am the next day to discuss what the job involves, the only problem was that I did not know who I was meeting or why. I had received the phone call out of the blue, and the person I had spoken to did not go into any detail about the job, they just gave me a time and the address of where I would be meeting my ‘potential employer.’ When you are a lawyer, you don’t think too much about those types of phone calls – although I would have preferred to pick the location myself.
That night I had a group date with my best friends Chloe and Sandra.
They had been my friends since we were in law school. Chloe had long blond hair with colors running through it, pinks, purples, blues and oranges. She was short, maybe 5’2 and she was very socially awkward. When Chloe was younger she really wanted to be a hairdresser, but her mum forced her into attending law school. Chloe didn’t want to upset her mother, so, she used her talents with hair as a side business as a way to make some extra cash. Now Sandra on the other hand was the complete opposite. Sandra was a girl of status in the law industry – as her dad was a lawyer. She was tall with luscious tanned legs that go for miles. Sandra had dark hair and dark eyes, with a European look to her plus she was really skinny and everything about her screamed sexy. Sandra always had all the guys pining over her like little puppies, even though she turned them all down.
As the night progressed I couldn’t shake the feeling that I was being watched. You know the type of feeling you get when you think there is someone who just won’t stop staring at you? The hairs on the back of your neck stand up and cold shivers run down your spine, as if someone had ‘just walked over your grave’ as they say. That’s the feeling I had now, so I decided to call it a night with my friends and walk home.
As I was walking I started to feel dizzy, queasy even… did I really drink that much? A few minutes passed by and I couldn’t bring myself to walk any further. I hailed the first cab I saw and jumped in. My house was about a 10 minute walk away from our favorite hangout but I just couldn’t bear to walk any longer. The taxi drive made me feel worse. I wasn’t even sure if I was even in a taxi anymore and I just passed out.
The Script – Hall of Fame ft. will.i.am
There is always a few songs, that will come and go in your life, that leave you feeling amazing inside. This particular song is one of those, if you are reading this and you take the time to click on the link and listen, or you have already herd the song, then you know exactally what I mean.
Toda I awoke at 4 am… last night I had a sort of a ‘tiff’ with ‘J’ as usuall… we never can sort out our differences. Anyway a while ago when we had a ‘break’ I said to him “you need to learn to live with yourself before you can learn to live with us” and last night I mentioned how I said it a while back… He got angry with me, because i have this habit of saying something, that wont make sense to most people because i dont bother to explain what i mean. So after him being angry and claimng ‘I act like i know the secrets of the world’ I actually explained myself.
And i said “Jordan for a while now you have been lost, going around in circles because you dont know what you want to do with yourself… figure that out… what does jordan want to DO with his life. not what does jordan want IN his life… think about it”
I feel that this particular song is perfect for this situation. Because as it explains in the song… you can be anything in the world that you desire, and dont let silly things stop you.
I would say, especially not money. You do not need money to make something of yourself, because money just buys you things not happieness… Money just puts food on the table, and buys the fancy table for the food, it does not in any way hape or form fill that part of you that is reserved for just you and your dreams… unless your dream is to have all the moneys… then your on the right track he he.
On another note. Today is my 3D ultrasound. I am currently 35 weeks pregnant and ready to pop i would say ha ha ha. Now if you have never seen a 3D ultrasound here is a picture from my son Setesh’s ultrasound
As you can clearly see there is his foot, arm and his little nose there. So I will write my Part 2 post later after the ultrasound and show you all some pictures. Until then Have an amazing day.
What do you write when you can’t stand the sight of your keyboard?
What do you say when you feel words are worth absolutely nothing at all anymore?
What do you do when you have cried a million tears and they just keep coming no matter how hard you try to be strong, and how hard you try to stop, to be strong for your child, so they don’t see that their mummy is hurting?
What do you say when someone asks you are you ok?
Usually I would hold it in, I wouldn’t tell anyone and I would cry in private. But now look at these tears, I am hurting and I know you are too. These tears are here to show you that you are not alone, that it is ok to cry. No matter how puffy and red your face becomes, it is ok.
So what, you are having fun with mates and you feel like crying, just cry… it’s the only way besides actually saying ‘I am not ok’ to show someone that you need some support, that you need to cry and that you just need someone to be there for you even if it’s just to listen to how your feeling.
I haven’t written a post in a while, because I am not ok, and I cannot find the right thing to write about. A lot of things I could write about seem pointless to me at the moment, so they can just sit there in my drafts waiting to be finished.
So I thought I would write something that seems like a good message to me, that it is ok to not be ok.
It is ok to need help and it is ok to admit you are depressed.
If I don’t post anything for a while then it is because of this. I am sad… and being sad just brings negativity to my blog. So I am avoiding it, I am avoiding my precious blog that started from a post about the negativity of facebook, to quitting facebook, then some motivational books. I have written some amazing posts and some just down right terrible posts.
Above all of it, I am not quitting but I am just going on a holiday.
So farewell for now, I will be sure to take photos of my holiday. It will be my wonder full comeback post, my massive holiday to real life traveling from blog world.
Which I am extreamly greatful for. I would like to start off with something a bit different, a little speil about my time here on wordpress so far, because today is a very good day and it seems lucky in my eyes.
begining my journey on wordpress I didnt think I would ever get noticed, it has been… Since june, so almost. 4 months since I first opened up my account. My very first post was not bad, needed work and didn’t do as well as I hoped. http://allworldissues.com/2012/06/26/facebook-what-have-we-become/
My next month wasnt too bad, my best post for that month was this one http://allworldissues.com/2012/06/30/dont-sweat-the-small-stuff-and-its-all-small-stuff-richard-carlson-phd/ still this post is very popular
And last month my most popular post was http://allworldissues.com/2012/08/28/a-truly-inspirational-post-deserves-a-im-trying-to-be-inspirational-counter-post/
In the time I have been on here I have seen my views sky rocket and fall just as fast day after day
And month after month
Before I started writing this post I took a few screen shots of my stats for it, and I must say that i am happy with this number
So now I must get to nominees that I have chosen for this award.
I have chosen only a few people so far, because i am still in the middle of my choices and answering the questions. But until then, stay tuned.