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When you think of writing something that is out of your comfort zone, you can feel a bit stressed and anxious about it – because let’s face it, when we write on our blogs, it doesn’t matter how many times we claim “oh I just write for me” we all know that we also want people to like it and sometimes this leaves us feeling horrible after we have hit the publish button up until the part where we receive our first comment or like.
Stepping out of your comfort zone is a part of life as we all know. Writing this post at the moment is out of my comfort zone because every post I write I feel as if it is not good enough only because I am writing it not reading it. Sometimes I look over old posts and forget that ‘Hey I actually wrote that’ because it was out of my comfort zone.
The circle that surrounds our life that we ever so strangely call ‘Our comfort zone’ should be pulled down every once in a while. Don’t get the wrong idea, I do not mean go run down the street naked because you wouldn’t usually do that… if you did that you would go to jail… and I don’t want to be blamed for that sort of thing. I mean when we write, we should throw ourselves out there and see what happens with our writing.
Although I realise, even if I did put myself in a writing course (which I would never do) I can never make a career out of writing, and lucky I don’t plan to… because honestly when I was finding writers for my new website, it seemed like there are more writers than there are jobs. So you would be lucky to get a consistent job in the writing field unless you were the boss of your own site – Like you are with your blog.
It’s the best thing about having a blog/blogs is the freedom of the written word that comes out of your mouth, you don’t have to answer to anyone, you don’t have to write something that everyone likes and you can always write something out of your comfort zone and not feel anxious about it, because almost 10 out of 10 times, no matter who you are and what you write, no matter who shows their interest and who reads your post and keeps it secret that they like it, and even the people who don’t have a way to show you they like your post, someone out there, will indeed no doubt like what you have written.
For those of you who are wondering, I posted my first draft copy, of my first chapter, of my first novel and for the first time. That is a lot of firsts. http://allworldissues.com/2012/12/05/rubys-notes-chapter-1-draft-thoughts/
I asked people for constructive criticism (yes good and bad) one thing you need to realize if you want to publish your work – you need to seek the criticism, and face the music – otherwise how are you going to improve and make it better?
Last night I spent a bit of time editing it (old school paper and pen style)
here is some of the edited copy – And for those who are wondering ALL my work IS in fact Copyrighted. So don’t be thieving
Being a school teacher wasn’t all it had cracked up to be. Sure there were a few perks, seeing the smiles on those children’s faces every time I entered the room, just as easily they smiled when it was time to pack their bags and go home, teaching them all about how the world works… How much they actually listen to is a different story. My name is Ruby, Ruby Kensington but you can call me Miss K.
I’m not married, I don’t even have a boyfriend, I don’t have children of my own and I don’t have any friends. No I am not a weirdo or maybe I am. You can decide that for yourself. I’m going to tell you a story about how I ended up in the position I am in.
June 28th 8:40pm. 1993
It was the 90’s and I was fresh out of law school, already I had already received my first job offer. I was desperate, so I went for it not knowing quite what I was getting myself into. We had arranged to meet at 9am the next day to discuss what the job involves, the only problem was that I did not know who I was meeting or why. I had received the phone call out of the blue, and the person I had spoken to did not go into any detail about the job, they just gave me a time and the address of where I would be meeting my ‘potential employer.’ When you are a lawyer, you don’t think too much about those types of phone calls – although I would have preferred to pick the location myself.
That night I had a group date with my best friends Chloe and Sandra.
They had been my friends since we were in law school. Chloe had long blond hair with colors running through it, pinks, purples, blues and oranges. She was short, maybe 5’2 and she was very socially awkward. When Chloe was younger she really wanted to be a hairdresser, but her mum forced her into attending law school. Chloe didn’t want to upset her mother, so, she used her talents with hair as a side business as a way to make some extra cash. Now Sandra on the other hand was the complete opposite. Sandra was a girl of status in the law industry – as her dad was a lawyer. She was tall with luscious tanned legs that go for miles. Sandra had dark hair and dark eyes, with a European look to her plus she was really skinny and everything about her screamed sexy. Sandra always had all the guys pining over her like little puppies, even though she turned them all down.
As the night progressed I couldn’t shake the feeling that I was being watched. You know the type of feeling you get when you think there is someone who just won’t stop staring at you? The hairs on the back of your neck stand up and cold shivers run down your spine, as if someone had ‘just walked over your grave’ as they say. That’s the feeling I had now, so I decided to call it a night with my friends and walk home.
As I was walking I started to feel dizzy, queasy even… did I really drink that much? A few minutes passed by and I couldn’t bring myself to walk any further. I hailed the first cab I saw and jumped in. My house was about a 10 minute walk away from our favorite hangout but I just couldn’t bear to walk any longer. The taxi drive made me feel worse. I wasn’t even sure if I was even in a taxi anymore and I just passed out.
No don’t take the title literally. Lately I have been slowly decreasing the ammount of time I spend a day watching the news – something I used to be quite fond of until recently. I used to love watching it, being fully aware of what was going on in the world, I looked forward to the weather report and the currency report… All up until recently it suddenly hit me, its not news I’m watching, its gossip and fakery – mainstream media… Where we sit on the edge of our seat waiting to see what trouble the next celebrity has gotten into.
It feels like the ammount of real news we can witness is going down day by day, as we are more consumed in vanity and gossip… And with the help of social networking sites, its easier to get inside people’s head with the idea that we should be living our lives a surtain way… Sadly many of us fall for different types of this ‘brain washing’ from what exercise we should be doing all the way to the type of people we should be, not to mention how much money we should be earning to be classified as successful.
We are even lead to believe that the less unfortunate people, people who rely on government benifits, food stamps, welfare – what ever you want to name it – are good for nothing doll bludgers who have no intentions of getting a job and just want to live off others tax money. Now I will admit I fall under the category of a ‘doll bludger’ at the moment – I can’t work I am a monther of an 18 month old and I am 38 weeks pregnant. I also believe that in order to give my children a good start in life, I should spend the next 5 years (before they head off to school) teaching them as much as I can. Others don’t share my views – therefore I am labled a ‘doll bludging lazy mother’ regardless wether I’m pregnant or not.
We have been led to believe that mothers should no longer have the right to stay home with their kids because its ‘lazy’ and they should have a stable job. The reality is kids need their mothers… Around. Yes its all good and well to have a job and work, those children do fine, but not all children cam handle the busy lifestyle of being rushed of to childcare everytime mum or dad has to go to work. So us stay home mothers… We are doing our job and in some country’s, we don’t get paid for it – I am lucky in my country I do get paid to stay home and look after my children, lucky me I guess… Except it comes with a label like most things socially unacceptable ‘doll bludger.’
There is not only that, there is the issue of the ‘latest technology’ and how everyone should have it. There is a cycle that goes on where I live and this can explain why there are so many ‘doll bludgers’ here. So you walk up to a retail place with your CV/Resume. You get told that you can only apply online… Thing is not everyone has a computer or access to one. Now nearly everyone assumes we are all up to speed with the latest technology – I mean if you don’t have a smart phone you must live in a cave right? Yeah didn’t think so… So why do we assume that everyone has internet and smart phones and big TVs etc… The majority of people who don’t have jobs that I meet, they are on welfare… And they try and try to get a job, except they either aren’t qualified or they are not up to speed with the ‘latest technology’ and miss out because for some reason, retail stores will gladly send you out the door if you try and provide them with a good old fashioned paper CV – yeah none of that retro old tree shit here… Thus ending in people who have no job and still can’t afford the latest technology to get a job.
So I flick on the tv and turn to the ‘news’ and there is 1 section about hurricane sandy – sympathy goes out to you all in the midst. 1 tiny section on a local stabbing 1 section on finance and weather and the rest of the hour long program? What we should be wearing, who’s body shape we should be obtaining, Shane Warne makeovers, Kim Kardashian sex tapes, mummy kardashians awesome ‘mumagerial’ skills, which celeb has ended up in the dog house again and the latest technology we should all own… And some puppies that were born under a house and were rescued by fireman…
So umm I may be a little out of line when I say this but – when did celebrity status and gossip, indirectly making people weight conscious and worried they don’t look enough like the celebritys and some puppies being born count as news? When?
What about science, and outaspace, and planets, and protons and neutrons, elements, minerals, black holes, natural disasters, education, etc etc… What about those important things? Instead of “hey want to know how to look like Kim Kardashian? Well loose a few pounds with this fattening diet shake that you should drink Instead of eating proper food like fruit, veg and meat, get some plastic surgery that will cost you thousands, get up to date with the latest technology, and put this dress on… And bam you will then look like her, and have the social status to match, you will then have millions of useless pieces of paper that we use as money, and be classed as successful – only then will you fit into society.”
It has recently come to my attention that lately I have dished out a few mediocre posts but nothing spectacularly amazing like I used to. Now I am not sure if it because I becoming ever so slightly angrier each day with being pregnant or because I am losing my mojo for good this time.
Let’s re-cap a bit on the past events of last month. The month that was October – Ok well… Nothing overly spectacular happened.
I sat at home nearly every day and grew some more baby… ate a few (ok 6) custard tarts, taught my son some new tricks, watched him learn some on his own (climbing the couch and leaping off it) listened to some music and saw a few friends.
Well I guess something did happen that was interesting – the unintentional leading on a guy then realising it then cutting off contact with him – Remember back to this post http://allworldissues.com/2012/10/22/hazelnut-lates-and-baby-chinos/
Where I talk about my friend who I hadn’t seen in 5 years and he had a daughter? Yeah well I decided to let our children hang out and boy… I think that was a bad idea. Not because there is something really wrong with the guy… But because I had no intention or interest in forming a relationship with this guy other than our kids hanging out. So it started off with him texting me a bit too much – ok let’s try every single day. I thought “well I guess he just wants to get to know me because why wouldn’t you want to be able to semi-trust someone who will be near your children” so I took it as a harmless thing. I made it very clear to him by talking about my recent relationship that I was, not only not interested in forming a relationship with anyone but I was also not interested in him, and then I met his children… Now I must say I am not really one to judge other people parenting unless I find something extremely wrong with it in my mind. I can tell you one thing was for sure… I did not like his parenting at all… or the fact that he lived at him mothers place in a tiny house and his mother and step father are hoarders… Now it’s not so bad when you are a hoarder and you keep everything nice and neat, but if you don’t have a lounge room anymore because it is being overrun by kids clothes, toys, shoes, baby gates, cot pieces, little lounge sweet, bits to toys you don’t have etc… It gets a bit much… especially if every room is like that including the bathroom with toiletries, the kitchen with TV’s and fridges and magnets.
Now that wasn’t the only thing, while our kids were playing (my son is 18 months old and his daughters were 5 and 20 months old) I would just sit there, with nothing to say at all, not a single thing, and when he did speak it was more so like ‘blah blah blah’ to me because nothing he talked about interested me NOTHING!
And then I realised that I had accidentally lead on this guy without intentionally doing so… and without trying… just me letting our kids hang out and he got the wrong idea. Maybe he missed the ‘not available’ sign slapped all over my text msg’s or completely ignored me when I said ‘I am not looking to get into a relationship with anyone.’
So I couldn’t stand the no conversation, he thought he was going to score with me, I did not agree with the way he parented his children (I haven’t gone into this but let’s just say his youngest had a little children’s fruit bar filled with crap for dinner instead of a proper meal) and I couldn’t stand his parents, his parents’ house, being in the house made me feel sick… So what is the point in being friends with someone I cannot stand one bit?
So I decided to take him off my Facebook and not contact him again – this is when it got freaky… He noticed within the hour that I removed him off Facebook and sent me a text msg and asked me about it…
Who notices when you remove them off Facebook and asks within the hour of someone doing it? honestly… someone who is stalking your Facebook profile.. That’s who, because Facebook does not notify you when someone deletes. Thus proving – that he had the wrong idea.
Basically I am glad I ended that friendship within the first week or so of it forming and now I remember why I had not seen or spoken to or tried to speak to this person in 5 years.
Is it time to get back to reality? I think so!
I would like to also take the time to mention I noticed this today
I wanted to say WOW! Just wow… seriously? That is AMAZING!!! I am really proud of that! And it could never have been achieved without ANY of you. So big thankyou to all my amazing readers and followers, you mean a lot to me – And so much for thinking I was just producing some mediocre stuff.
Do you have that friend, or know that person, who claims they do not read? They have a phone, they have a facebook, they have a room full of magazines, they have their school books and they have their video games on their computer. So tell me again how they don’t read? I am sorry to those who have used this, but it really gets on my nerves when I hear ‘I don’t read’. Of course you read… Did you know that you automatically read words that are placed in front of you? You will notice this most when you are in a car or on the bus, you will find yourself reading every sign you lay your eyes on, soaking in every letter, processing every thought about that particular sign.
Written word is by far the most powerful way of pushing information into someone, whether they realize it or not as a person who ‘does not read’ they sure do read a lot.
I woke up feeling pretty good this morning after my decision yesterday to just go for gold, finish writing my book and not be afraid to seek publication. I also woke up with a bit of writers block.
After trying to think of something to write about I decided to check my blog and to my surprise I have been nominated for another beautiful bloggers award from http://keiththegreen.wordpress.com/ thank you again!
So there we go I have something to write about today. Last time I was nominated I did not include any facts about myself in the post I wrote about it because I thought my facts sounded silly… But they are facts so why be Afraid?
So here are 10 things you will now know about me.
1) I am a young mum to a beautiful boy and will be embarking on my journey to the hospital to have my second boy delivered via c-section in 8 weeks. So soon how exciting!
2) I have recently (like only yesterday) started yoga and I feel better already.
3) I like natural skin products (especially aloe vera) and can honestly say they are worth the extra money.
4) I watch a news show called sunrise religiously.
5) I love coffee and have indulged in it regularly since I was about 11 or 12.
6) I love the idea of meditation but I have never tried it for more than a minute.
7) I cannot sew with a sewing machine but I can hand sew, knit and cross stitch.
8) I love to bake and decorate cakes.
9) I really dislike when someone speaks over the top of you and completely disregards what you have say… I mean how hard is it to let someone say what they have to say before you put your two cents In?
10) I am on a journey to be happier as I have suffered from depression for 6 years now. Step one writing this blog – check. Step two finding an easy and calming exercise – check yoga thanks to mum. Step three – who knows.
Now you just learnt 10 things about me time for my 6 nominees.
http://ravenswitch.wordpress.com/ for her interesting blogging style. Always an interesting read.
http://stuffitellmysister.me/2012/09/05/stuck-on-you/ for her ability to put a smile on my face when I read her posts
http://momentmatters.wordpress.com/2012/09/05/is-lying-good/ the title just explains is, moments to matter and I feel this blogger deserves to be reminded that they are a good writer, plus there is always a different blog.
http://thelaughinghousewife.wordpress.com/ for helping me laugh time and time again with her joke posts.
http://lesleycarter.wordpress.com/ for giving me hope for the future with her bucket list posts. Soon I hope to create my own bucket list.Really
http://mittenskittens.wordpress.com/ for always having something interesting to say, there is never a dull moment on her blog and she will go far in life if she puts her mind to it.
Thank you again everyone. It really is amazing how many people love to read my work, and the awards I have been receiveing just top the list of reasons I love sharing my thoughts and feelings with you all. So with that I leave you with an idea, a thought and a reason to think.
If you could say or do something that would make a strangers day what would you Say or do?